So for my year of firsts I can add one to the list. Today I made it through my first church service without crying! I know this may seem like a small feat...but it took me months to even go to church and then it has taken me a couple more months just to sit and not cry. I always think about the first time we went to church together or what he would be wearing. The first time we went to church together in Boise we met Pastor Collins and I immediately felt at home. A couple weeks later we met with him and asked him to officiate our wedding. That day he and Kevin talked about the Lutheran religion and he gave Kevin and I some books on the history and background of the Lutheran faith. Kevin was never much of a reader, but he took those home and read all of them. He would even show me things when I got home from work or school and we would talk about what they meant and how we could apply the teaching today. I miss that. I miss going to church with him.