I am finally back in the panhandle state and it feels good to be doing absolutely nothing. Moving put an added stress on top of everything else and I am glad that is over. I feel like I have been focusing on what to do for everything else that I haven't had a second to focus on myself and where I go from here. The answer is...I have absolutely no idea. I still have one more year of school and I am excited about the new learning experiences that will bring. I will be in my clinical rotations, with real patients, and dealing with real clinical issues...not just studying for a multiple choice test. I really miss Kevin on days like today when I had a long day of flying and just wanted to relax on the couch. The picture above is from camping in the Sawtooths the month before we got married. He hated my tie-dye shirt and never let me wear it in public with him so I tortured him at home and camping and wore it all the time. I miss that.

I am still very anxious about Christmas just because I don't know what to expect. Everyone says the days leading up to the holiday are worse than the actual day. That was true for August 8th, our anniversary. That was not true for my birthday. My birthday was one of the worst days I have had yet. I have been nervous and very sad about about Christmas since October so I just hope it goes okay. I will be surrounded by family and I think that is all I can ask for.